Saturday, June 28, 2008
i feel so rejected by the local education system. it's almost as though i just don't belong here and there isn't a place for me at all. feels like everything is going wrong. and the learning journey doesn't feel like what it is supposed to be. i don't really discover anything about myself and i don't find it very enriching either. when i think back about A's i find it so nauseating.
and i'm starting to be more interested in the SDP website
http://yoursdp.org/ haha. thanks to a zoo colleague who's a very interesting person having gone through life much more than us with his age. omg this is making me so angsty thinking about how ERP is on practically all the time. i'm sure douya will agree on this. i kind of don't really see how the future of our generation and future generations to come can lead comfortable lives with prices of everything on the rise and the not-very-rising salaries of workers.
i'm so glad cherie is going to get out of all this rubbish and experience a real education. i'm really happy for you lulu. but i know it's going to be tough not having you around. and in years to come we'll all be kind of slogging. it is pretty sad.
oh ya to sidetrack, i heard from my brother that in the states there's this very interesting group of people in a village who does not believe in taxes and the economy. which means: they do not have electricity, they farm or harvest everything they eat and consume, they make their own clothes from cotton itself, they make their own furnitures, they use horse carriages as transports and they bathe at the river. it's like totally self-reliant. wow really. in my life i should get a chance to meet them.
gosh so much angst in such a small person. so unhealthy. and my elder bro keeps saying to me you're so skinny, omg why are you so thin etc. it's starting to make me feel like i am sickly. but i'm not! rrr
oh yes, what's with the weather!
love you like a sister;
6:30 pm
